I forgot I had this. I also forgot why...
But sometimes I need to write things, and it helps. I have very little care if anyone reads it or not.
In the past, I've learned that I over think everything. EVERYTHING. My current life, my job, my relationships with friends, dudes, acquaintances, my future, school, politics. I never stop thinking which is good, but I need to stop OVER thinking.
I've been working on it for a while, but my cousin posted this on facebook which is what made me think of it:
For yesterday is but a memory,
And tomorrow is only a vision,
But today well lived makes every yesterday a memory of happiness,
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well therefore to this day.
My biggest issue is that I try to accomplish too much in a single day. I try to fix every problem, I try to smooth every argument or issue, I try to move forward with things that are still standing still.
For a while now I've been doing every thing I can to not move my life forward faster then it should go. I haven't been thinking about grad school that much, I haven't been thinking about my future at my job more then I should.. I've just been going through the motions of my life. I DO think I'm better off for it. I find it easier to try new things, to get to know new people, and to live life better.
But is that the right choice? I would hate to see life become stagnant. Of course I know that in order for things to happen, I have to MAKE them happen, but I think there's a limit on that. I think we have to balance what we DO and what life GIVES us. We have to take each day as a single different day then all the others, we have to grab possibilities as they come at us, we have to make possibilities happen. But we also have to take the days where there are no possibilities or no opportunities, and smile at those days too, and still somehow find a way to enjoy them.
It's finding the balance that everyone needs to work on. Because of course this isn't just a message for me, I think everyone has this problem.
So don't let your life get away from you, but don't get away from your life, either. Somehow keep them in line with each other. You aren't racing your life. But it WILL race by you if you let it. You have to keep at pace with it. How do you do that? Think of that quote.
So today I'm going to do the same thing I did yesterday. I have no idea what I'm going to do tomorrow. But for sure, I know what I'm going to do today. And I'm going to smile about it, because it's what I do.
What I do know about the future is that as each day goes on, new opportunities rise, and we have to grab them before they go racing by....
