Cleansing

I've decided that my spirit, my soul, my something needs cleansing. I'd been having trouble in our new house for a while, maybe it's just the presence of negative energy, maybe it's an actual spirit, or maybe it's negative energy in me. I cleansed the whole house with sage which has helped, so much! I sleep much better at night... But now the bathroom is full of it, which I know is really weird. I may have to cleanse that more.

No, this is not hokey shit. I really believe that energy can truly affect our daily lives, and our spiritual existence.

It's been a year (exactly, this weekend), since the shitty breakup. And I haven't had the best luck since. Constantly getting sick, constantly ignored by men, constantly broke, etc. Things just haven't been working out for me this year.

I found this really great set of instructions really on how to cleanse your soul and spirit and help your karma:

http://liliyanadivinehealer.blogspot.com/2011/02/universal-meditation-for-cleansing.html?showComment=1320506196473#c1845861145727768015

Whether it's because I thought badly about other people or they thought badly about me, but there is negative energy around me. Last night was supposed to be great... it was supposed to be amazing. And it wasn't great, it wasn't all that amazing. Sure, it was fun. But I ended up not seeing the guy I wanted to see, and instead meeting the girl who took my ex's virginity!? I'm sorry, but WHAT? Hello, my life. This is how it works.

The guy I wanted to see is great. He's not a jerk like most of the men I go for. He's sweet. He's cute. I think I could really like him. Right now, of course, we're just friends. And really, we're just friends who only hang out at metal shows. Which is fine. But I'm ready to get to know him, and suddenly he's unavailable. It's just how it works with me.

So today I'm going to cleanse. I'm going to do yoga. I'm going to do all kinds of things because I really need to feel whole again.

And p.s. no word about the job yet....